What Blooming in the Dark Means to Me

 My personal catchphrase that I came up with in ~2018 has really hit close to home this year.

But what does it mean?

We all have the capability to bloom in the dark. But choosing to bloom in a personal choice. Others are waiting for the sun to get them to bloom, only to find disappoint soon after.

There is something to be said after you grieve what once was, to choose to spread out and GROW. You don’t let your circumstances push you down. You fight to break through the surface of dirt.

It’s not easy, it never was. But it is 1000% worth it. In the end, you choose and trust yourself to get you there. Sure you may have help or inspiration, but only you can rise up, because it’s up to only you.

Blooming in ones life is something beautiful regardless if it is in the sun or the dark, but there is something to be said about when it’s the dark. Most do not go that route. Most like taking shortcuts and doing the TDLR on blooming.

But cheating on blooming can cause the petals to fall earlier than you want. Autumn is inevitable, we can’t always be on the upwards our entire life. Life is, well complicated.

But we can choose to bloom for ourselves, all you have to do is choose to not settle. Don’t settle for being stuck in the dirt. Choose to dettach from where you currently are and identity with what is above and your potential (your new reality).

The Start of a Journey to Low Tech

 This past Summer upon my adventures into the Pinterestophere I was pinning images related to nostalgia. One of those categories happened to be tech nostalgia. I grew up in the 2000's of pre-smart phone tech when you had gadgets dedicated to few purposes and made of heartier materials than what is used now.

It got me thinking and I found myself in the low tech "trend". Those who were tossing their smart phones for a notebook and flip phone, Google maps for a GPS, paper books over kindles, and old tvs over smart ones. I found myself pulled in.

My plan is to get a flip phone that I use just for emergencies but will use and have on me when I want to go hours or days without a smart phone. I plan on getting a point and shoot camera again that will be on me more often than not. Or who knows maybe I can get my antique collection of cameras working? However those would for sure need a red room and that I am lacking in the space for and the funds to get them done by someone else.

I plan on getting a tv with a built in dvd player and building upon my small dvd media collection. My book collection is always slowly expanding regardless. I have a Neo Writer and have used it in past however I am more wary about it failing with any work if I don't offload right away. 

I intentionally chose an older theme for this very blog because of all the choices with older ones and its an important reminder to myself. Old doesn't mean not usable or outdated. Sometimes older tech still outweights what new tech can do. I bought a 2007 or 2008 handycam for my vlog because of the aesthetics I want it to have and there just seems something so much more fun about holding something that just has one purpose and it does it well.

I hope to one day get one of those new but older looking monitors just for the look of it as I do want to protect my eyes still which is a benefit of modern technology and pixelization. I do not plan on stopping use of my iphone or other modern tech, however I want to change the way they affect my day to day life. I want to use my notebook more, read physical books more, and be more present in my daily life with the world and nature.

Low tech offers a hand out to give me more gratitude in my life and the things I own. I want to set forward with reusing and buying/borrowing second hand as much as possible. I've had too much of a reliance of the instant capitalism system that is currently in-saturated our world.